Took my sabbatical off LinkedIn

Removed my sabbatical status off of LinkedIn yesterday.  Applied for my first job.  I don't think I'm cut out for lotsa time off.

And it's NaPoWriMo (National Poetry Writing Month) and I haven't written today's poem.  I need a theme - and it can't be "boring myself for fun and pleasure."

Here's a picture of the blooming garden.  It's gorgeous out here.  Dave and I took a walk in the middle of the day before I sat myself down and attempted writing for the day.

It's funny, but I learned back in '99 when I took that 3 months off that the Way of the Artist was not for me.  As much as I love to write, and paint, I don't like the marketing of it.  Nor is my primary writing voice marketable.  I write poetry for Heaven's sake.  I love the idea of making a living at my art, spending my days smearing paint on canvas or producing a novel.  But the day to day work of writing or painting, well, it bores me unless I'm hot.  I gotta say though, I'm a better writer than I am a painter, a better painter than I am a dancer, a better dancer than actor.  I've gone through the gamut.  I'm gonna stick to engineering for my profession, although I will continue to write as a hobby.  But then again, some of my favorite writers were hobbyists (e.g., Wallace Stevens, William Carlos Williams, Wilfred Owen).

So no, even as I am working on a short story and my poetry, my "art" so to speak, I cannot see this filling my days the way I seem to need them filled.  It appears my head must be exploded several times a week for me to find fulfillment.